Beautiful

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This is truly so magical, idk how to save it but I hope oneday I see it again! 

Crossroads

When your heart isn't willing, but your... Ugh fuck even mind isn't willing. Why? Lmao. WHY? 

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I know I should but I do not want to, why this hold on me ya? 

Crazy.

Well, we can't term them crossroads then, can we? More like a one lane highway going straight sans exits. 

Pathetic, I am pathetic. Bah, humbug. 

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FUCK IT. 

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A bday selfie to preserve a year gone by. Unvarnished, as it should be. 

Song that always make me happy

Lambada 

Loved it all my life and still do hehe. God, I wanted to dance like that so bad! Pure little joys. 

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Ai yai yaiiii hahahahah omggg love this so muchhhhh

Canon in D

I feel oddly relieved. And then I saw a rainbow too lmao. Hehe, that was super nice. 

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Just want to sigh and look at the rain tbh. All whimsy.

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Omg i can't even hahahah omgggggg. I just. The only thing that makes this song better just the only thing. 

Oscar

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Dammit I love this song so damn much it's crazy I'd lived all my life without hearing it haha. O fortuna indeed. How can I gripe against you when you bring me such joy too? 

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As silly as it might be, all the love I've ever felt in my life, it can be captured within the notes of this song for me. Move me to tears, why don't you already? I love you so damn much. I really do. ♥️

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Love

Damn. I agree with the first comment. 100 years ago, you probably only heard this once in your life. Fuck. I never thought of it like that. Music was so rare to come by. Fuck. That's nuts. Privileges we never appreciate we have. Somehow the idea that you hear this just once is also beautiful.  

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The fact that I'm wearing cosy socks as I write this while the rain pours outside makes it just so nice. 🙂 

Footprints

...some earmark the journey of life. 

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And the one footprint that stamps the sands of time.

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Ugh. 

What a journey. 

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Heh. 

Wish they had kissed too ngl lol. 

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Bonus. And my fav pic tbh.

You can always trust a good dad, a good person, a good friend, or a good soulmate to catch you. And you know they'll never let you come to harm. 

I think this is my fav pic simply because of that. Because his mum just stood there, safe in the knowledge that the kid is in safe hands. Real men make you feel safe. Vamos ♥️

When I see you

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I see you with the eyes of love. 

The lines on your face, the frowns, the smiles, the way your chest moves. The ruggedness, the temper, the way your voice can croon. The grumpiness that can spark annoyance. I am honest enough to notice things as they are, but I do not weigh myself down by the lens of judgement. 

I'm an optimistic beaver perhaps. I feel like I'm called to build. These days all I build are walls. Shame. Hopefully that will change. 

For now, I see you getting older...the subtle signs of age...they creep up on everyone, as they do on you. And you are conscious of them, aren't you? More than most. I wonder if that means you find yourself hard to love. Do you need to be perfect? We all fall short of that, that's one of life's constants.

I used to think love was pristine and perfect or atleast it was meant to be. Little did I know. 

I see all this now and maybe a bit more, lord knows you aren't perfect, neither am I. And yet I view it all...as always with the eyes of love.

All the kinks, all the insecurities, the subtleties...they endear me to you. I like to make you smile. Even if it's just for a moment. Nah. Tbh poetry aside, I wish you'd smile a lot more and be happier. I like it when you tease and take things lightly. The way you can make jokes in that voice of yours. That humor is just wicked good. Damn. I'd love for you to share my lens, and see that you are loved just as you are. Some days less, other days more... But always loved. No matter what. 

Loving you is a part of my soul. I fear that knowledge most times. But I love you just the same. How could I not?

Little by little, I have discovered this one unshakable truth - 

it's those things people tell us are flaws, stuff they tell us to hide, to keep hidden, pretend it doesn't exist...to be ashamed of even...those are the very things that actually make me love you so fucking goddamn much. 

Flavours of ice cream and flavours of you. Could never say no to either of that. 

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Me - 2025

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The corollary must also hold good I suppose. Maybe if you were perfect...I would not love you at all. Hehe. Suck it. 😘

The Star

Oh my god.

I am stunned. 4 pages is all it took for Clarke to write this stunning masterpiece. 

I am speechless at the ending. Just. Wow. Absolutely wow. 

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I think it's the best short story I have ever read period. It's so profound I feel uneasy. Lol.

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Rereading the last question also and this time around I'm so not convinced with its flow. Hmmm. I guess I find Jorge Luis a lot more intricate but I suppose Asimov is a lot more accessible? It's interesting the complexity difference between the two. Never thought I would say this but yeah, Asimov is actually a bit more simplistic to me. Entertaining yes. But not in the same league. And yet, the simplicity is what makes it more accessible somehow. Borges is so much more complex that it makes for difficult reading. Atleast for me. Hmmm. 

Chiseler

 😂😂 And this is how I imagine that boy fuck. Hahahahha aaaaahhh no wonder I'm soooo fond. I just see the same angsty cute person in him with a tiger hahahahha.