11 am seems like a lifetime away when you wake up at 6 am. Alas!
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So much fun to squeeze out a win man. So good. Some days I love playing. That felt niiiiice.
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It's only 2 pm. Time is crawling.
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Everyone is getting the nobel prize. Where is mine? :(
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9 pm scrolling and it's just Andrew Garfield everywhere. He seems like a good actor but idk why I don't really like him. Weird instinctive thing...
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I'll read the vegetarian tonight
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And now I'm up at 3 am and restless asf
Seasons really have moved. Been raining all night. And now court is wet. I remember as a kid going to school when it rained. It used to feel like the world was enveloped in a blanket. Just wanted to rush indoors. Now I intermittently like then dislike it. It felt cozy when we were in a small town and the outdoors was kinda closer than it is now. It's soooo apartmenty where I'm at. Maybe when I retire I can just move to some small hill station and then enjoy life that way. I think that would be excellent.
Well. Indoor cycling it is for me today.
Finished watching traitors and idk so meh. For a game that could have been super interesting it was just such a bunch of bad participants. I really want that UK season tbh. The premise of the show is so nice but why is the end result like this. Sheesh. You really need some really good participants to make it happen. Reviews say oz and Canada ones are also meh.
Also omg it's raining outside. Oh my court! 😅
Up at 3 am and seeing a robot dance to hare rama hare krishna. The world is unreal. And the robot is super dexterous. How soon until it helps at home?
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Mondays 😁
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Suddenly that rhyme hot cross buns came to me. Idk why.
God I used to hate raisins in bread. Hot cross buns are nice though, gotta wait till Easter to get em
I have a neck sprain, hip sprain and mild fever to boot. Lol. What a spectacular way to fall apart completely. 😆
Let's read some dostoevsky just to add existential angst to all this why not? Hmmm. I think I have the crocodile loaded up somewhere lmc if I can read that.
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Hmmm. It was quite a nicely written story. A bit childlike but I enjoyed it too. He really does know how to interpret people. So very well.
Stories of that era have this quality of absurdity that makes them unrelatable to me. I connect to them mentally but never emotionally. I see the overarching point but there's something so alien about them all that it kind of leaves me hanging. The one that I actually truly loved was Pushkins Queen of Spades. Now that was a total zingggg! 🎯
Maybe I should explore more by him.
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Eyyyy whenever I am chilling out of the blue this stupid canon in d plays wuuut. In celebrity traitors of all the shows. Stupid song always punching in the feels. If someday I marry the love of my life I'll sneak in some earphones and play it for myself 😂. It's legit one of the few songs that just makes me emotional and gooey how very rude of it!
I don't even know any of these contestants. The premise of the show is so brilliant why aren't there normal intelligent contestants. It would be a brilliant social experiment. Ugh. Stupid canon. Taking me out of cheap thrills. I wish I could watch the UK one with Stephen Fry. Love that man!
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Omg now it's playing in some random yt vid wuuut. I can't escape this song today lmao ♥️ well, I'm happy, chase me always love! I love you so damn much!
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Djoko beat Z lol. I just knew he'd win today somehow. Ggs👍🏼
Djoko is still playing. I thought he was done for the year. Must be getting paid a lot.
I'm ignoring everything I gotta do to just chill today. I think I'll just chess today tbh. Some games were kinda fun just chilling and playing. Shall I try for 21? Maybe I will.
I want a nice song to listen to tbh.
That achy breaky heart song is stuck in my mind. Don't tear my heart! Haha. Tu tu tu tu tu
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Someone put a tiny orange in a crate of orange carrots at the supermarket like a citrus impostor and it made me laugh so much. Just the other day my tennis friend put a mosambi in the ball crate and it was the same silly thing and idk why but idiocy like this has my heart.
Everything hurts. This is crazy. Movement gets so restricted the minute you have aches and pains yo. Slept funny and neck is also strained lmao. Totally falling apart, aren't I?
Really gotta fix this shit asap. I refuse to allow this to be an impediment for too long. Just tired of this. And so tired of watching a ball whizz by without making an attempt to reach it when my hip hurts. Never again man. Time to take conditioning seriously.
It's pretty hard to not be cranky when stuff like this happens tbh.
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I feel so defeated today like. Hmmm. Meh. Like it's annoying when the obstacle is just not a lack of will to work but rather something external. I really hate that. Hopefully it wears off. 😕
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd8Ztafo1nT/?stkn=aTBqbWptZzVxdGpq
MOFO OMG. FUCK ME THATS SO PRETTY OOF
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Mmmnaaaaan that angle is lethal whaaat
I am floored
How very wise I used to be 😂 smiling despite myself here. Sheesh.
I made a pivot to being childish post that time and I'm glad. I'd rather be a goof than wisdomous cuz who cares. Life is short, just enjoy the ride.
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I forgot that tomo is a holiday too. Not that it matters I still gotta wake up early but good to know the streets will be clear. And I wanna play hard tomo just. Need to work out properly and fuck that stupid coach who overtrained me lol. Hips also can hurt I didn't even know that 😂. I just want to be fucking good again man. Ugh. I'll do whatever it takes. Idc. Too long, TOO LONG.
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Winning stuff I have no business winning. Am I complaining? Ofc. What shitty games eeyuck
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This is gorgeous, but is it worth 5.4 lakhs? I can totally make this stuff. It's right up my alley too, the geometry, the themes. Hmmm. I think I'll give it a shot. Maybe weekends I can keep for a proper painting sess. I'm so very sure that I can create intricate pieces like this.
Dreamt of sk of all people. Weird. Dreams I remember are always so interesting. We were travelling to some place and had to go through areas where people would be like zombies and attack with bottles and needles. Some crazy lady was chasing us through buildings and were they labs? Something like that. Like what in the sci fi dystopia was that sheesh. Dreams are weird.
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I recall JB saying he strives to get below 10 on centipawn loss. And then I see these other games that are wildly going on in a swing state cuz who cares let's just get the opponent. Haha. It makes me laugh lots. Just the difference in approach is so night and day. Caution vs throw caution to the winds and charge! Just soooo relentless. I suppose that's why I love Sadler too, and Magnus. They combine both these approaches in such harmony it's beautiful. Esp magnus. Every piece of his is in harmony with the rest it's just a fucking symphony man. Like nothing he does is out of sync. Ooof. What a brain that dude must have.
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Ugh waxing poetic for maggu and he loses to some witty dude. 💀 What a field day for that guy lol
Anytime I play in the sun I get a headache later in the day. This feels awful. Eyes hurting too. This low key sucks cuz my group is so fun I enjoy playing with them but they'll be coming later in the day and I gotta go early. 😕 I really do enjoy the camaraderie with that group, esp that one dude. Ugh. Well. Tis what tis.
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Woohoo all the teas and gifts have arrived. I'm glad. Now to repack and ship it all omg. Hope it goes there easily and he gets it easily. It's a task all this shipping and making customs forms etc. wish I could just outsource all that tbh
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Head still pounding hours later wut man. I'm so weak. So WEAK!
Everyday there's a post on tom brady on my timeline like why. Don't even follow the sport he plays or care why his wife left him. How weird are people who fixate on all this honestly. Completely unnecessary.
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I need to get up but I wish to snooze too. The everlasting dilemma of early mornings. I'm like sisyphus. Just pulling the same rock up and watch it roll down. In this case I gotta roll over. Zzzz. Okay ten min nap then I'll gtfo.
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The sun is merciless. Zapped my willpower away today ezpz
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Oh wow this dudes friend is still playing... crazy. Sometimes I wish he would tell him not to. Idk why I always want to interfere also I don't even know that guy, but something about him hits right into my protectiveness instincts. I feel like a bird wanting to keep him under wingspan. Oh well. Atleast it always made me smile to see how codependent they are on each other. It was good to know there was a teeny tiny smidge of good inside that guys blackened heart. Silver linings I suppose 😆😁
I'm able to beat 2k ratings if I think and play and it's not particularly tough either. Interesting. Lmc what I can do.
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Steve McQueen looks exactly like Daniel Craig. I somehow really like these old films. They are shot in such a glamourous way. The pouffes and the impeccable style. Legit so distinct. I gotta watch more of these old films sometime. Oh my there's a game of chess in it too lol. That's funny. I'd love to see what the game actually looked like.
Never knew one of my fav authors had a movie about him and none other than Philip Glass created this.
Wonderment. And the comments talk of Bobs Burgers lol. Never seen it but it must be good. How worlds collide.
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It's a cold, cold morning today. Knees be hurting yet I must play.
