I rannnn

 I wonder which is the best lip sync battle. Anne Hathaway was epic, so was Tom Holland. Which other one can I remember? I need to rewatch all this bs. Lmc 

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Meh gotta listen to starboy and dance 🩰 

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And my fav

Timecop

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Nothing like the synth to hit the spot

Ocean Drive

I actually want to drive on that long ass highway next to the ocean in Australia omg. Just go so damn fast noone can catch me 

Because... BECAUSE EEE.... 

I ran

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🎷🎻🎸🎸🎸🎹🎹🎧👩🏼‍🎤🥁🎤🔊

A song in emojis. 

HYPNOTISE ME THROUGHHHH....

I JUST RANNNNN. I RAN ALL NIGHT AND DAYYYY. 

😩 🥁🥁🥁🥁

Nothing worse than waking up to play a godawful game lol. It was unreal how bad it was tbh. Oof. Going back to sleep for ten fuck this.

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Suddenly it's a lot cooler than it was a week ago. I'm 🥶 🥶 🥶 

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FINALLY my second parcel is sent zomg. That was unreal the amount of time it took. Sheesh. 

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Bruh I'm so bad at chess today ewws. 🤢 

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Ugh still bad. 😕 Losing every game and my will to play. Some mischief is afoot cuz what else can explain this slump 🥲

Dreamt that someone broke my racquet and I had to go buy a new one. 😡 It was all mangled up. So worrisome. Was so happy to wake up and realise it was a dream. Sometimes they can feel so real it's uncanny

Musetti popping up on my feed in his underwear was NOT something I expected sheesh. Just ewws. 😭😭😭😭😭

Why do mens brands do this yukky stuff man. Zomg. 

Right after news of him banging berettinis ex too lol. Cashing in on the drama I guess. But damn. Put some clothes on laddie. 💀💀💀💀

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Ugh. 

These semi nakkey men'#s underwear ads are so gross yo lmao. Do guys just look at musetti and go... Oooh I gotta buy that underwear? 

Maybe somethings are best left unanswered, huh? 

🙅🏼‍♀️🙅🏼‍♀️🙅🏼‍♀️🙅🏼‍♀️🙅🏼‍♀️🙅🏼‍♀️🙅🏼‍♀️🙅🏼‍♀️🙅🏼‍♀️

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And like... Why even this. Just why. Like it's so clear what they tryna do 

😐🥲😭

I should totally spam this to someone. 

"A story about comfort, focus and everything that happens before the performance. My underwear is iuman."😐🥲

I have no words. None. 

I finally understand what owning squares means. Zomg. What a revelation. I am loving playing today, it's so engrossing. Now all squares need to be mine, only mine. 😤

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Zomg these draws I tell you just whyyyy. People need to pull up their pants and lose with honour. 😤😤😤

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Okay I'm tired. Gave it a good go. Think a couple of days and i should get there. Woohoo. I'm excited 

I'm actually nervous to go play today tbh. I'm just so reluctant to get another injury or aches lol. I know I need to go and play but still. Genuinely loved letting my body relax and get back to the mean. I hope that stupid coach isn't there anymore man. That's all I need. He doesn't know how much to push or not push. Hmmm. 

Well. Whatever. Time to deal. 

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Also I want my stupid 21 hundo today ugh. It's been too long slummin it in the 2000s. No thank you! 😡😩🚫

Almost got a 2200 too. I think I can do this. Just need to compete. 

Okay 2079. I can get to 21 today maybe. Gotta think and play though. It's kinda fun to ngl. I'm enjoying it

Oo 2089. Okay I feel nervous I should stop. I won so many in a row. And now my body is tingly I'll deffo throw the next game. 

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Yep threw it lol. Oops. 

I feel good though. I should always keep my target at like 2200 so 2100 doesn't feel like a big thing. 

It wasn't tough even now. But more fun cuz I thought. Surprisingly I also had more time even after thinking things through. That's nice. I still don't see this as chess though, sadly. Like it's becoming evident to me that I'm just missing very easy peasy things. Hmmm. We would look like such noobs to people who are titled. It must be childs play to beat us ngl. 😐🥲😕

I think what I love most is simply the thinking now tbh...it's so engrossing. Yum yum.

2022 is a year that changed my life. And 23. Honestly. The amount of jazz and mammal hands I heard. I loved it all. And I loved how alive I felt, how at home. Parts of it sucked but other parts were superb. I'd like to get those back in my life. Heh. More mammal hands and cold nights. 

I saw an old person at the post office today. And he was a bit slow and needed help with his wallet and understanding stuff. It made me feel sooooo bad. I wanted to ask if he needs a drop home or something. Ugh. This world is so unfair man. Like. Idk why whenever I see someone this way I feel like zomg do something for them. I've developed a weird affinity for old people I want to just keep them all safe and sound. Like keep them all in one nice compound where you know they'll be safe and not have to deal with the world. I keep chiding my folks also to look after their health and work out and eat right and what not. Seeing this old gentleman just made me want to... Idk. I just wanted to ensure he gets to wherever safe and I wondered why he was unaccompanied when he can't count the money in his wallet. :(

If there is a god, then please listen to me. I'll never ask you for anything for myself, but pls make sure to protect everyone vulnerable. This much is owed to us. 😡 If I were you, I'd have done it without anyone asking me. And I shall shamelessly ask for many boons for people around me cuz I want them to have every opportunity and luck and well-being they can get. 

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Ughgh. I feel all queasy and weird rn. Silly old peeps getting into my feels. 

 Awwie. Sir Patrick Stewart has passed.

Godspeed, Jean Luc. What a shining star you were! 

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Gems of a generation, truly

Wanna read some old asterix comics. It's been years! I used to have the entire collection stored somewhere should dig it out. It was one of the funniest ever comics. Right up there with calvin and hobbes. That's the greatest ever I think.

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Lmao I snuck a peek and this khadoos is still playing with his pocket hanging out hahhaha. Damn man. Idk why it makes me smile so much. Ugh. It's just so silly and cute 

You know what I am? I'm like a candle made of cheap wax that melts for no reason. Needed to be tough like a diamond instead folding like a pack of cards whenever the wind blows. Sad, truly sad. Ugh. Okay close, not putting myself in harms way. Not now, not ever. Gotta train myself to be TOUGH! 😅

Meh. It's cute and all, but yeah. I think peace, stability and niceness are cuter. I shall hold out for that for myself. However long it takes it's fine, I'd just rather wait for actual kindness, not all this silly melts. 

I'm glad I met my tennis friend too, the small gestures that come so implicitly to him always anchor me in the knowledge that sweetness and consideration can and does come naturally to folks. What makes me happy is how I now naturally gravitate to that too. On a personal and important level that's what counts for me instinctively now. What a hurdle to have crossed in life. Bit by bit we shall build a castle with strong, anchored foundations. ♥️ Until then, clean slate, happy mindset. And let's just get to work again. 😁

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Gotta start playing again tomo though, good I should sleep now and wake up early. All injuries have healed I'm sooooo afraid I'll have to go back to aches and pains from tomo. Well, such is life. So let's gooooooo!!! 

Oh man it's such a hassle to get all this FIR for my numberplate etc jeez. How I hate all this documentation bs. Ughhhhhh. Now I maybe have to go to the police station or something for it. 

Kids have it easy their parents do all this bs. 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

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Whew one big task done! 

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Wawrinka getting a farewell and here I thought he retired like two years ago lol. Didn't know gael also hadn't retired until his svito released that statement. Wuuut. Didn't they retire earlier???? 😂 Where have I been sheesh.  

Mirka should drop by to call Stanny a crybaby again lmao. What a burn that was 

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I haven't even accomplished or tried to accomplish any of my chess goals this year. This is shockingly poor of me. What have I been thinking sheesh. This year has been a shocking waste of time. Just. Absolutely zero 🙄

Atleast I need to try and get back to it. 

What an odd and pleasant dream. I was helping out with K's kid and she was preggers again. I was so happy for her. Gave her a big hug and it felt so sweet and positive. Hoped it was a boy too hehe. 

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I liked that. Even in a dream it just felt positive and nice tbh. 

Holy moly it's 28th oct already. Dude this year is fuckking overrrrr. Howww. Jeez. Too fast, too fast. Life is running by. 

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I have done nothing of significance this year. This is now weighing on my mind. 

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Well. What to do. Just read a bit maybe

Sunshine and smiles

Lol. Watching tennis as I get ready. That silly inside out pocket made me laugh so much. He can be so unintentionally cute ya. So then I switched it off when I caught myself smiling. The writer in me is so very amused at the thought of this angsty ball of rage going about life wearing a pocket inside out. Such a khadoos Hahahha oh boy, that's exactly it.

Heh. Okay no mo smiling. I gotta get out of bed and go play too. 😩 After two weeks. I must have forgotten what a forehand is by now. Iss when you swing like swatting a fly, right? Right?

Craving some chocolate today idk why. Just want some nice dark chocolatey dessert or something similar. Something hot to beat the cold outside. And yet I do not wish to go out to get anything. A good deterrent it be. Laziness to the rescue. Maybe tomo when I go to the post office. I'd like to get myself some good whiskey too. Keep it at home for a bit. It's been almost a year or more since I had whiskey that's nuts. Don't even recall the last time. Heh. Well, I don't particularly care either. It'll be so cool if I never drink again but that's unlikely. It's just the cold outside that's making me crave something warm tonight. 

Waking up early is tough when it's sooooo cold outside omg. Straight up 8 am I got up. Crazy crazy. And I'm still sleepy asf. Go away sun plsss 

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What a beautiful game I played ooooofff omggg. Aaaaahhhh. Jesus that was delicious just like smooooooth 🧈