Whew! Ran lots today. This was fun. And had a lot of fun playing rallies. Glad I went a bit early too. The sun wasn't as bad. Hmmm. I have honestly nothing but deep respect for how much M has maintained his level ngl. His commitment to all things that serve his selfishness is very commendable. Haha, I refused to give a wholeheartedly nice compliment also now. Gotta be a lil snippy cuz why not. A bit of bite in everything 😁

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Listening to thanks for the memories on the drive over made me laugh so damn much ngl. Such cringe lyrics omggg. Love the song and the pettiness of it tbh. Thnks fr th Mmrs tbh. God the spellings of the 2000s loool. Thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so great. Hahhahahaha. Just 👩🏼‍🍳💋And then linkin park. It's the best cringe teenage band ever! Idk why taylor swift gets so much hate by the I'm so cool crowd when a whole lot of prog and rock also have similarly childish lyrics. Haha. Fun stuff man. 

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Watching a 17 to sinner okay against Steve J when I woke up last night omg. What a crazy, crazy, crazy guy!! That was sublime. A teen dismantling a grown man like that is insane to me. And coming back up from 5-2 like. Wowza. All great matches happen on clay, a hill I'll totally die on yes sir!

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It's nice to see someone trying tbh. Feels good. Hehe. Small things like this always make me smile. 

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Hmmm. I feel a headache coming on. Everytime I'm out too long in the sun it feels a bit shitty. Should maybe just go early in the day.

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I remembered that crazy dude today and checked out one of those alt and OMG it made me laugh soooo much. Some people are just so nutty yo. I miss the old days of Twitter where there were all these funny accounts giving quips. Although I must say the feed cleanup has been immense these days... I was completely shocked. No more mucky rage bait bs. I guess people finally decided to restore it to normalcy. Wonder if that will help change its image back. Who knows? Not my circus, not my monkeys. 

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I love witty folks yo. Just. 

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Was thinking of watching Midsommer this week and then the vid I was seeing mentioned it. 😳 Coincidences like these are so damn weird. Midsommer isn't even a generic term. Sheesh. Everything is connected shhhhh 🤫

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 wow 2 am and I'm up cuz I had such a bad nightmare. Ffs. Scary stuff 

Fuck. The fragile ego of a talentless man who thinks he is hot shit is the weirdest fucking shit I've ever encountered. Gowd. What a fucking clown that guy was. Total noob and had the gall to try and talk down to me. Glad I beat him nicely. The good bit is that people like this just motivate me to do better cuz there's no better feeling that rubbing their stupid face in it. Then watch them cry and give excuses. 🙄

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Time to focus and get much better, faster! 

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I'm not even tired. Feels like I hardly played then. Even though we played for an hour and a half. Ugh. Want some good rallies from now. I want to be the best player on this court ngl. People like this honestly motivate me more than anything else. Imma do my best.

Too sunny 🔆😎!!

Have so much to finish today! For some reason Tuesdays feel great. Just right in the middle of the week when you can hit your stride! 

🥂 

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This waking up early thing is finally not seeming like a chore. Slept late last night but still managed to get up by 7. I am so proud of myself 🥲 

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Soooo hungry today!!! Need food!! 

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Broke the cap by almost half wuuut. 🙄

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Turning out to be a semi frustrating day nothing is done properly. Harrumph. 

Why is it that whenever I cook I end up burning my hand just a bit somewhere 😭. Every other time. Ugh. Should just eat fruits and raw vegetables in protest. 😤 

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Omg I bought round ice trays I can use round ice for this. 🥺 Silver linings. Also, wow I completely forgot about them. That's wild. So burning hand and forgetting things. Beautiful 

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Heh. It's funny to me that Kafka said this. I don't know the larger context of why but I do believe at times in life this can be true. I know I loved you with all my heart. Just. Every little bit of me. So yeah, I guess you could say you atleast had one person who fully loved you. I believe that's a privilege. When you know a person has chosen to give you their love. 

Then I think of that line from Lady Bird... When the sister talks about her loving sacramento. Loving something and paying it attention is the same thing. I agree with that. I pay attention when I love someone. Conversely I don't feel loved if someone is all about themselves. I can't like such folks. Dislike them, sure. Heh.

And man, I dislike the mother in this film. So annoying. 

"What if this is the best version of me?"

Heh. Chalamet hates Dave Matthews. Lol douche. 

Crash in to meeee! Baby! Sweet like candy to my soulll... Sooo lost... For youuu. 

Watching a movie in 3 parts. Finally finishing it tonight. It doesn't have the same feeling attached to it as I had earlier. I guess that's just the growing up. 

Mondays are back. The sense of routine has a familiarity in it that I like. Good stuff. Back to grind. 💪🏼

And now it's afternoon and I am taking a nap lol. Feels so good to just unwind ngl. A hectic week and then a chill Sunday. Delightful!

My knees and legs need a good rest after the shock of coaching lol. 

A laaaazy day, and I'm very happy about it. Gotta buy some workout gear and that's about it. That's my day. 

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Been watching some old Roger shots. How is he so pretty ya. What effortlessness just. I love his game so damn much. 

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Damn I played an extra rapid game. Oops. Didn't count. Wish I hadn't too, lost it so badly lol. Oh well. Tomo is another day! 

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Time for zverev sinner 😑. It's weird to see an abusive guy ngl. He tries to be so overly friendly these days. Trying real hard to win people over. Still can't forget him trying to hit the umpire once. Crazy scenes. And he is soooo tall. Shivers. Anyway. I suppose it'll be a tight first set atleast. I feel like he has worked on his mentality a bit, who knows... Maybe he doesn't choke this time around. Let's see. Man, if he weren't an abusive guy I'd have rooted for him to win ngl. Just goes to show you never know how people are just by the face they put on. Scary thought. My guy instinct says he is going to do well today tbh. Let's see. 

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Whew. Ending on a loss and then having to quit cuz game cap is reached is low key annoying lol. Well, serves me right. Should not have been rash. Tough love to me! 

 Just one of those mornings where I wish to snuggle my pillow and go back to sleep. Ohhh Sunday! ♥️

I'm not even sleepy just restful. What a yummy feeling

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And now it's afternoon and I am taking a nap lol. Feels so good to just unwind ngl. A hectic week and then a chill Sunday. Delightful 

Crash into you

Dave Dave dave

Listening to it after so long. As gooey as the first time. ♥️

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Watching Lady Bird again just to see if I like it the same. I must say, I do. Chalamet is such a douche in this lmao. I'd forgotten it was shot as snippets. I'm in my oh if it's too artsy it's trying too hard phase. Interesting how movies and books hit you different at different ages. Brother loved it though. Hehe. And he likes the painting I sent. T and M do too. That's so nice. I'm glad. 

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Omg timmy tim is totally a jerk lmao. Reading his intelligentsia books no less. Soirise is just 🤌🏼. She is such a talented actress, truly remarkable. I'm glad I never had an affinity for such douchey boys. Always the witty ones and the shy ones I found charming. Good good.  

Been playing 24 rapids and then wondering why rating has been plummeting 😁. Fine, I shall limit myself to 5 from now on and think and play all of them. 💪🏼 Some might suggest this has never been done before, and to those I say... Well, today is the day! 

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Already capped my 5 for the day. Oops.

It's so easy to waste time on insta sheesh. Woke up super early, had an hour to kill before getting ready and boom! Hour is donezo. Crazy. Looks to be a sunny day so imma have to slather on the sunscreen. I'm always afraid of the sun. ☀️

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It's already getting colder though. Which is nice. Socks time. 

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Oof. This one coach is such a waste ya. Chi. Only chatted and made us serve. 😩. I'm not even tired, remotely. Just feels icky cuz sun and sand lol. Ugh. Should go for a run. Really have to do more of these start stop drills ngl. Direction change running is so different than just going in a singular one. 

Onwards and upwards!

Shit I just saw a clip of Naro's mum talking. I feel so so so bad. It's gutting to see. Mannn. She seems so gentle and sweet. This feels surreal all over again. 

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There's no amount of punishment that can right a wrong that's been done you know... Like... It's very hard to repair any damage. I understand that naro might have had his own demons, but that doesn't mean they weren't exacerbated by that unhinged lunatic. How do you lose your way to the point that man did, that you just stick to someone like a cancerous wart like that? Fucked up man. Just. Truly fucked up. Chutiya fucker. 

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I'm glad about the fact that despite seeing and being around shitty people at times, I've never lost sight of my core tenets and apart from telling people not to encroach on my peace of mind, I mostly try to choose kindness as a default state. I hope that doesn't change. Or gets put to a test lol. I don't want that in life. Just live peacefully, have fun, push yourself as much as you can and then chill with some good folks. Iss all. 

Okay Arthur Fery. Pls. 🤌🏼🙏🏼

Nvm lmao. Ggs though I suppose. Oh boy next one will just be soooo brutal. Strap in, I guess. 

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Ugh. Everyone should retire like what even was that. 🙄🙄🙄

Love

Played two sets oof. Was so fun. Netted a bunch of things but who cares. I loooooved it. I can't wait to get better mannnn. Made two friends also ahha. Both of them at my level. Something about guys being at the same level just feels good lmao. It was super nice playing with them tbh. And that one mum who I kept on hitting on the sidelines lmaooooo. Idk whyyyyy hahaha. Fuck. I forgot all their names but next time!

All in all, this was great! I'll go tomo and day after too! Woohooo!!! And I have to stop not swinging fully lol. Sheesh. 

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I looooooove being on the court all sweaty and smelly hehe!!!! Yukkyyyyyy

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Damn old Mrs. Gill passed away. Mum just told me. She was the one who made me my cute little snowman cake when I was a kid. Hmm.I guess she was super old. Rip. Thank you for the cutest cake I ever had. :)

Ugh why is Gauff doing this?  😭😭😭 Pls win 3 setter pls pls pls. Omggg. 

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This last set too tight zomg. 

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Mofo and I'm also slipping 1940 now wtf. Omg Coco plsssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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😔 Why'd she have to net that MP. 

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You know what? I have nice warm socks I can wear, take that world! 😤

Simi

Simi Garewal replied to the comment omg. Hahahaa that's soooo cute ya! Heh. It's adorable that she is 80 ish and still active on her own website. What was just meant to be a silly dare from my bro actually feels sorta nice now I think about it. Well, im glad such corners of the internet exist, it's good to see such innocent grace. 

Keeping cuz one day Id like to be reminded of it. Hehe.