Bdays in yellow

 No sleep at night but this is so cute

Damn she is 60 today. 😱 Happy bdays 

Wow Howell has played all day. Like all lol. I love bullet benders so much. 🥺

3153 is insane. I think he wants that numero uno spot hahah. Good going! 

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A nice hot shower with nice smelling shampoo after a long sweaty run feels divine. Getting into a freshly made bed in cotton clothes is cherry on top. No matter how good or bad the day, just this moment feels so luxuriously beautiful to me. 3 Cheers for citrusy smells that are currently making me sneeze. 

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Welp. 4 Am and I am awake still hehe...ofc. juuust what I needed. 💀Zombie days

Omg cooking food everyday is such a task. 😩 

Sometimes I remember M while cooking. Esp today since mum brought over mangoes from the other town. How it must be to not eat anything but the same few things forever. I honestly appreciate how much M can stick to his diet man. Real endurance ngl. Weirdly enough, and I'll never tell him this... But he did bring a lot of positives in life. Like... I suppose some folks can be a catalyst for a good change and he was that for me. That's nice. Hate him lots but also love him lil bit. Maybe not love just like a tiny bit. Hmmm. Hehe, now I wanna recant cuz 😤

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May is so full of bdays! Gotta get cake for mum tomo, aks bday is today. Errone born in this month 😩. Aks bday also today, oh crap djoko too lmao. All assholes born on the samezies days. 😁

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I'm fuckign stuck at 1873 like an ancient being like whY the hell what's even wrong with me. Gah! Hate it!!! Need to go run but instead I'm stuck here doing this bullshit.

My eyes are barely opening zomg.

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Last night, I finally got fed up and mentioned to M that she crossed lines with me. It's interesting that she didn't apologise but just said she considers it banter and won't do it again if I don't like it. 

Heh. Funny thing is I haven't actually mentioned any of the bigger stuff, but also like ... I'm tired of immaturity. I'd rather just not. It's interesting, I've often noticed how much she sees herself as a victim in all scenarios so I definitely half expect her to flip the script, but it would be nice if it leads to some positive change for once. Yeah, it's a lot better to air out grievances than just keep it inside and let the resentment build up. So let's see. Chips will fall where they may. 

I honestly never realised how dysfunctional people can be. Growing up in bad houses really does a number on them. Insane. Well. What to do. 

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I'm excited to send over the painting though. I'm so happy with how it turned out. Can't wait for my brother to get it! Woohoo! 

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Omg why am I sucking at chess chi yuck wtf 🤢 🤮 zomg such low level 1800 eww.

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And I miss that fellow also ugh. Like a boomerang I zoom back 🤣. Atleast somewhere I always remember.

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Omg djokos draw is BRUTAL. Good lord. I wonder if he makes it past Fonseca. Although iirc he was injured so who knows. Perricard is also good lol. Oops, total oops. What a cliffhanger this is, can basically gtfo at any point. That man really always has to work for it.

Even in the midst of all the hustle and bustle, I do at the end of the day miss a person that's special to me. Inevitably. That's kinda nice, or atleast I hope it is. 

I wanna listen to fleetwood mac. Stevie nicks is soooo nice. Love that voice so much

Life gets hectic when mum visits. And dad is arriving today too. I have soooo much to do before they arrive here. Being busy is nice though, can't tell where the time went. 

I'm looking forward to a nice couple of weeks with parents. Idk what to get mum for her bday though. Haha no saris she told all of us. 

She was missing brother soooo much. Been a while since we saw him. :(. Sucks dude. 

Decisions, decisions! 

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It's so cold and nice I'm having a hard time getting out of bed rn. Eyes are closing back. 

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I love opening reddit to see people pontificating about others. Why is Guccireza not performing well? Lol. Complete crap. I wonder how they even know how he is. And Alcaraz sitting out wimby. Sinner might as well do that too and we can finally see who else has a shot. So bored of these two already lol. Need more competition!

Artsy partsy

 This was fun to make! Stupid wrong perspective got it's face a bit off. Wish I had checked it twice ugh. So annoying. Imperfections bother me so much 

A good night's sleep does wonders. It's such a nice feeling. Even though it's a Monday. Even though I don't really hate Mondays. 

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It's raining too. Oh so nice. I have missed you rains! The heat was so crazy my phone battery was not charging properly. Wild. 

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Loving the sound of rain. Trust a hot summer to make you finally understand the beauty of rain. And there's some thunder. Roar!

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Stupid Tame Impala song is stuck in my head now eww. Insta reels are the worst. 🙄

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Quiz and Paint

Omg won a quiz after sooooo long. Dayum. Feels so good. 💪🏼

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And painted bottles omg that was such fun haha

Lemons and cats lmao. I'm happy though, M's cats look super duper cute

Waking up in this other side of town is such a drag. I have to travel all the way back. It's so hot and stifling in this side of town too. 

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It was kinda pleasant today. M seemed cheerful atleast. Hope she had a good birthday. 

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I am soooo hungry rn I want some nice hot idli lol. Funny, I rarely eat breakfast but I'm craving it today. Or just a bottle of cooooold water. Oof. Yeah, water it is! 

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It's nice to wake up and laze around reading. Feels like a nice Saturday. Too bad I'll ruin it by losing at chess. 😁

 Wrapping gifts just feels nice. Something about a corner well tucked is very gratifying. 

 Aaaaaa fucking stupid irritating game ugh. 

What a strange dream. Small meg was there setting her table, I met her out of the blue. Wanted to avoid some gathering, we chilled after a long time. Haven't met her in yeeears. How wut. It was pleasant just so weird to think of someone I knew so long ago. Dreams can feel so disorienting. 

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I've never had as much trouble with guys as I have with women friends lmao. People always say it's the opposite but dudes have been nice mostly. It's just the lady friends that have been a bit nuts haha. So controlling a lot of them were. Harumpf. 

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Why do so many people I know have M as their initial lol. Jeez. 

Canon

Watching Boston Legal and contemplating whether or not to read David Sedaris and that stupid canon in d comes on the show and I feel soooo moved. That song is just so beautiful to me my god. I can't believe I'd gone half my life without ever hearing it before. It's like someone just captured the sound of my heart and I never even knew it. Sappy as that sounds, it's so true. An obligatory oi vey. 

I wonder how many more songs are out there that I haven't fully loved. 

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Autumn Leaves

We don't wrap gifts enough these days. I wish to this time. With like ribbons and all lol. Idk why I'm so excited. I guess I love giving gifts. 

"What's your love language? 

Me: "ALL of them! "

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Cannonball Adderley today. Yum. I love him so much! It's hard to multitask when he plays though, that's a shame. 

His tracks are soooooo teasy oof. 

First time experiencing legs feeling like lead. Interesting. Was a total drag, going along the last mile. Oof. I don't want a day off but damn recovery time was so less earlier. Haha. Whatever. Tis what tis. 

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Feel a bit bored too. With everything. Meh.

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A good song at midnight always hits right. Esp if it's a slow jazzy song. Funny, I never liked blues before either but ever so slowly...

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Yet again can't sleep and it's soooo late. What do I do? It's weird but being tired sometimes delays sleep what do I do?