Waking up at 3 am these days just for a bit. I feel super wide awake too, like it's time to go brush my teeth lol. What to do, what to do. Maybe try reading, that'll put me to sleep in under two mins. 

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Weird intrusive thoughts pop up during this time. Like I noticed it's 15th oct and then remembered it's close to a year since danya passed. Feels so strange all over again. :( 

I feel queasy about this stuff always. Hmmm. 

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Fitful dreams and weird sleep post 5 am. Of wanting to reach some place with some tennis guests and not being able to. The courts were lovely though. Green and red. 

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Howell is still playing that's nuts... I fell asleep around 4.30 watching his games and now he is still going. Wish he commentated them more often, he has remarkable clarity of thought. I appreciate that. Maybe I'll watch some more rn. I have a feeling there'll be one clash I see. Caution vs let's fucking go! Haha. 

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Lol. And what a coincidence, it happened... Good fun. Atleast he made him think 🤔 . Out of all the games I saw, this one deffo had Howell ji thinking and playing. Nice nice. Howell is a beastie so that's quite good tbh. 

I wonder if games like these also help the players understand the inaccuracies they make. Something to think about later.