Talking to mum about K and how much we admire certain outlooks of hers. I really do find her approach to life to be great. Navigating a long distance marriage for the time being isn't easy but the thing I love about some conservative folks is how they have this stable foundation of ' this is my person, I made this choice, now what comes our way is something we have to deal with as a unit. ' I myself am like that so I truly appreciate the groundedness. 

I feel like as I'm getting older I have started gravitating towards folks that are similar in values and it's something that I hope sticks. I don't wish to be around anyone who is straying from that. Just now I was checking some post on reddit and it was about ibd and someone was talking about their experiences and I caught myself reading keenly, then googling, then suddenly catching myself and going hey I don't need to care. It made me chuckle a bit at the thought that no matter how awful the person, my instincts are always to care about their well-being. Guess taming that instinct would serve me well. For the time being. I'd love to experience the joy of just being in a stable equation so I can fully allow these traits to flourish and feel a sense of safety in doing so. Oh well. Until such time lemme just so my own thing.