Hmmm. Next week I'll go. Whew. Mentally prepping for it now lol. Fuck man. Sometimes just want to stay so far away from extended family that the idea of going there irritates me. It's weird when you have never had any connect with anyone and suddenly you are meant to simply go and show your face and be there. I find it very disingenuous somehow. Still, gotta do it for mom. I suppose that is genuine and I can feel authentic about it. I am not at all predisposed to faking stuff, life would be easier if I had that duplicitous nature lol. Perks of everything.