Fuck. This year has legit been really heavy. But it's helping me understand very innately how important it is to be clear, and to create a life for yourself that's surrounded by supportive people. Honestly. Knowing granny is sick, dad is always away at his job, never takes any responsibility of family in any meaningful way. It's just so sad. And sad to see my mom also having to feel hurt over his actions.

Damn dude. I'm actually genuinely getting very grounded and lacking in flippancy the more I'm seeing all this. I want my life to be bountiful in a sense. And I think it's time to make those adult decisions.