Song that always make me happy

Lambada 

Loved it all my life and still do hehe. God, I wanted to dance like that so bad! Pure little joys. 

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Ai yai yaiiii hahahahah omggg love this so muchhhhh

I'm so full ugh. It's a thing I notice whenever I'm feeling tired, I don't feel hungry whatsoever. Maaan... Couldn't even run today even though I wanted to. Just stayed in all warm lol. Oh well, sundays are for lazing around. Who caresss

Chilly days and we play

So cold and lovely. And that play sucked haha. Damn man. Why do people never write good plays? Even when the production quality is great and the acting is nice, it's the dialogues and the script that's soooo lacking. What a waste of driving so far. Oyster was good though. I like cold saturdays soooo muchhhhhh oof. Lovely!!! And it's gonna be foggy tonight, I can break out my woolly socks woohooo. I'm so happy about that!!

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Ooo Sadler commentating London chess. Wow, it's been ages... Legit my fav commentator. Fuck I remember switching off when Rensch commentated something once it was so awful. Haha. I was wondering why that was but now I get it. Sadler is just unadulterated, no fluff, just going through lines after lines. And he even covers open sections which is great. Simply just puts up a board and gets going. It's fantastic. Haha, hated that play but this chess analysis I can watch forever. Goody, I can just cuddle up and watch. Awesomeeeee.

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I had such a lovely daaaay. I'm so happy and cozzzzyyyyy at the moment. Oof. Love love love. 

Iss getting colder and colder now 🥶🥶🥶. Just bundling up everyday lol. Man. Wearing socks is the shizz. I love socks so much dammit

Getting woken up after a nightmare. That hasn't happened in a while. Hmmm lol. Man, what a dream that was. Feels like a sign. Lmaooo... Falling asleep listening to heidegger and waking up to that dream omg. I've never ever dreamt of this before like. Times like these I feel like eternal sunshine had a point. God, I hated that film. Haha. Feel like laughing now. Oy veyyy ughh. 

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Oh wow third time this week I've burnt my hand also dammit. Tf is going onnnnn. 4 fingers have scorch marks now waaahhhhh.  I'm turning into toast. 😔

T has grown up to be such a good guy, honestly. I really love to see it. Tbh the entire group is fun and funny but also responsible when they need to be. It's really great man. Hehe. 

Cramps in the cold man fuck. My leg huuuurts aaaaaa. I legit hate cramping so much. Arghhhh. 

Runs

81 times. Lol. In lieu of just saying hi. I don't care for scams tbh. I really don't. I'd say man jo but honestly like what's the point. 

Fuck it. I'm gonna run 10k tomo. Just because. And it will feel glorious lol. Something about running just feels so damn good man. That rhythmic want to just go on and on. Fucking love it. Everything can get stripped away but when you naked with just you and the universe it feels like you belong.

Decided to bail on dinner to watch naruto hahahah. Fuck. Why am I like this? Lmao. Becoming all reclusive. Dammit it's been forever since I saw Naruto too. My first actual trust with anime. Watched fucking 200 eps in a week like a crazy person. 1st semester break hahaha. Oh man the days of slow internet and waiting for shit to buffer and those fillers you couldn't skip. 2 years this manga went on a break 😂. Damn, I love anime it's so fucking good. 

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Damn that first Zabuza arc was stellar. Big 3 truly the best. I will watch all of one piece in my twilight years, pinky promise. 

Jesus...what kind of evil is Kramms even fuck...Even today he is using Danya's screenshots to keep saying shit like the guy passed away and still this man is going. What the fuck even. I have never seen someone this unhinged in my life. This is so unsettling even to recieve as a notification. How does someone obsess over a dead person's videos after harassing them relentlessly when they were alive? I am so sorry for his family man. Just. I didn't even know the dude and it feels so puke inducingly inhumane like I can't even imagine what his mum and brother might feel if they say this bullshit. Fuck. If there is a god, may he bitch slap that ugly unhinged man. This is just unholy at this point like idek how someone can lose their minds this much. Grotesque. 

Amen.  

I am loving tales from the loop so much. And it's so completely fascinated by the story telling lol. Fuckign felt teary eyed for a robot lmao. Sheesh. It's so cute and so damn nice. Haha. I wonder why this show only has one season it's legit very sweet. They've managed to anthropomorphise robots for me lmao. Almost wept seeing it feels bad hahah. Man I'm a total wuss like serious. 

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Sitting at T's wedding and playing bullet lol. Weddings are so fucking boring man sheesh. I just want gtfo lmao. Love him lots but damn. 

Met Uthaiya also out of the blue didn't even know he was related to Mals. That's crazy. Seeing him after so many years. Still the same sweet smiley dude haha. It was my one impression of him years ago and it's still the same. Good to see. 

Now, when can I leave? 😭

I SET FIREEEE

Omg my capacity is so bad now I can't even finish one tiny bottle of wine wtf. Who have I become? 😭

Talent that transcends everything.

Set fire to the rain

I haven't really heard too much music lately but damn. 

I love her so much. Every fucking note is precise. 

NPR

So raw. 

The only unfulfilled wish I have ever had is I can't sing like her lol. 

Dammit. Music, save me when you can, won't you? No barriers between us. 

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Fuck I love purity in emotions and things and people and myself. 

Omg how is Adele so damn good sheesh. Incredible 

Took 3 days and I got 2100 bullet. What did I achieve by this? Nothing. But idc. Eff it. 

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Watching Howell for the first time and he is bummed out about Naro and talking about it. I recall him tearing up too a while back. Hmmm. Sucks, they were colleagues too so it must be unreal for him. And man, he is such a strong player, is barely thinking and hitting 28 hundo without even trying. Crazy. 2700 blitz otb like dayum. Monstrous strength. Hmmm. 

I never realised how much I enjoy watching laid back chess tbh. I like this low key vibe and the games and everything. Iss nice. Barely ever see twitch now but I suppose every once in a while it's okay. 

Oh man. Naro's bday today. And seeing rebecca active 3 weeks ago just felt so messed up damn. Would have been 30. 

Damn... I feel weird

Hobbes

It's so hard to give up lmao. Fuck. I hate it. But then like an obsessed person I'll play haha. Fuck. Of all the unproductive things to do in life. Fml. 

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Dad showing up with a leather jacket lmao. Too funny. It's nice. He is becoming so tiny as he grows older lol. Very cute ya. Wish he could stay longer but it's okay. Nice to see him around. It's good he is relaxing as he gets older too. Can be so cute and jovial. I like that. 

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Ugh. Why am I so restless I feel like just running lmao. Just wanna tire myself outtttt. Literally the best feeling in the worrrrld is when everything hurts and you need to sleep it off haha

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Double ugh. Middle of the night and now I'm deep into Leviathan. Bc. One reco comes in my feed and then I look it up and now I'm reading ancient political theory. My soul wishes to vomit at these ideas too. Men just fall for grandstanding jesus. It's all about ego, ego, ego. So fucking simplistic. This book can literally be boiled down to 'one ring to rule them all' and a whole lotta flimsy reasoning which any power hungry despot will will glom on to thinking ah yes rest of mankind weak I greatest. Heh. I mean this is quite literally making a case for Sauron. And in the times we live in, the manifestation of Sauron is a scary asf prospect too. 

Fuck dude. Time and time again I feel as if human lives in entirety get fucked over by the ramblings of insane men who just feed you some variant of 'wow yousa greatest ever' ideas and people just buy it like sheep and try to attain that. Power hungry sheep but sheep nonetheless. Fucking sheep man. Bleat bleat bleat and tweet. 

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I'm dumbing this down to the point of comedic lows but in all seriousness the promise of glorious ideas is something that leads to so many people swayed by a quest that's destructive. At the end of the day every philosophy ends up in a bottleneck when it comes down to execution. Having buy in from everyone can only be done either via incentive or via force. Heh. The eternal quest of complete co-operation. Anyway, now that that's out of the way I can keep the hating aside and really think about this lol. I do find it supremely interesting lmao. 

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And since when did this guy start quoting the old testament? Is he suddenly becoming religious? Actually I wouldn't be surprised if he has some traditional thoughts tbh. It used to be nice to imagine him as a tad bit traditional, like a rooted person. If only that person exists simply in my mind and not in reality haha.  I still recall his stubborn refusal to wish back merry christmas like I was supposed to have dreamt up the idea that he is jewish lol. It was so puzzling at the time. Haha, but he still had to tell me finally cuz I also simply didn't understand it on my own. It's funny. The only time the idea of someone being a bit traditional didn't bother me was when it was him. I actually kinda hoped he was, it felt like it might be a quality you can rely upon at the time. How wrong was I? Heh. Very, very, very. 

Oh well. Believing in god or not doesn't say anything about a person, it's the values you uphold and shape yourself by that do. Hmmm. Anyway.. back to 🐉. 

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I wonder what ideas will survive a 1000 years from now... I wish I could time travel because I really want to know lol.