Hobbes

It's so hard to give up lmao. Fuck. I hate it. But then like an obsessed person I'll play haha. Fuck. Of all the unproductive things to do in life. Fml. 

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Dad showing up with a leather jacket lmao. Too funny. It's nice. He is becoming so tiny as he grows older lol. Very cute ya. Wish he could stay longer but it's okay. Nice to see him around. It's good he is relaxing as he gets older too. Can be so cute and jovial. I like that. 

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Ugh. Why am I so restless I feel like just running lmao. Just wanna tire myself outtttt. Literally the best feeling in the worrrrld is when everything hurts and you need to sleep it off haha

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Double ugh. Middle of the night and now I'm deep into Leviathan. Bc. One reco comes in my feed and then I look it up and now I'm reading ancient political theory. My soul wishes to vomit at these ideas too. Men just fall for grandstanding jesus. It's all about ego, ego, ego. So fucking simplistic. This book can literally be boiled down to 'one ring to rule them all' and a whole lotta flimsy reasoning which any power hungry despot will will glom on to thinking ah yes rest of mankind weak I greatest. Heh. I mean this is quite literally making a case for Sauron. And in the times we live in, the manifestation of Sauron is a scary asf prospect too. 

Fuck dude. Time and time again I feel as if human lives in entirety get fucked over by the ramblings of insane men who just feed you some variant of 'wow yousa greatest ever' ideas and people just buy it like sheep and try to attain that. Power hungry sheep but sheep nonetheless. Fucking sheep man. Bleat bleat bleat and tweet. 

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I'm dumbing this down to the point of comedic lows but in all seriousness the promise of glorious ideas is something that leads to so many people swayed by a quest that's destructive. At the end of the day every philosophy ends up in a bottleneck when it comes down to execution. Having buy in from everyone can only be done either via incentive or via force. Heh. The eternal quest of complete co-operation. Anyway, now that that's out of the way I can keep the hating aside and really think about this lol. I do find it supremely interesting lmao. 

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And since when did this guy start quoting the old testament? Is he suddenly becoming religious? Actually I wouldn't be surprised if he has some traditional thoughts tbh. It used to be nice to imagine him as a tad bit traditional, like a rooted person. If only that person exists simply in my mind and not in reality haha.  I still recall his stubborn refusal to wish back merry christmas like I was supposed to have dreamt up the idea that he is jewish lol. It was so puzzling at the time. Haha, but he still had to tell me finally cuz I also simply didn't understand it on my own. It's funny. The only time the idea of someone being a bit traditional didn't bother me was when it was him. I actually kinda hoped he was, it felt like it might be a quality you can rely upon at the time. How wrong was I? Heh. Very, very, very. 

Oh well. Believing in god or not doesn't say anything about a person, it's the values you uphold and shape yourself by that do. Hmmm. Anyway.. back to 🐉. 

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I wonder what ideas will survive a 1000 years from now... I wish I could time travel because I really want to know lol.