Whaaaat a cutie lmaoooooo. I love him so much.
Fuck I'm actually feeling humbled by his journey outside tennis this is wonderful. I love how grounded he is, how caring and how he takes his family forward. Just absolutely goated and how. Fuck dude. What an incredible man. And an incredible wife. I think that's so important. To have people who love you, believe in you and care for you. He says that too and it's amazing. I love it.
Eastern grip for the forehand gotcha feddy ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
What an interesting concept. Sometimes I feel people really had a lot of smart ideas but could have been lost over the years.
Watching the decline of Kramnik just feels sad like it's such a clown show now. Sometimes I wonder if the side effect of playing chess competitively renders people a bit crazy. Him, Hiki, that loser fabi with his inability to relate to non teens, idk. It's all really odd and immature. Kramnik is losing his mind, judging by his current tweets about alleging a chess com conspiracy for his losses 💀
Or is he just that big a man baby that he wants to make the world think he lost not cuz he sucks but cuz someone rigged it?
Calling it a man baby is sort of underselling it tbh... It's simply not normal to be this way it's like going into adulthood kicking and screaming and he isn't even that old he is in his 40s 💀
Wow, even Sadler is older than Kramnik like wtf. Yeah this behaviour is very disturbing.
Heh. I was randomly seeing some vid of some woman at a hospital and I just felt like... Imagine if someone is mad at you when you need them and they just treat you badly right then? People are capable of all this. What kind of a life is it if you not only can't count on someone but you actually fear that the minute they don't get things their way, they'll just treat you badly?
This is one of the fears I have in life. I end up coming across all these posts daily where people have such strange and cruelty filled reactions to each other. Spouses who don't come through, people who leave you or treat you badly when you are vulnerable and it makes me wonder how people are so flippant with each other?
I can't even imagine a loved one being in such a situation let alone ever, ever leaving their side. Man. I'd fucking fight the world for people I care about. And I just... Ugh. When I see these people taking their marriages so casually and thinking divorce for every small thing and what not... Like a part of me just feels like saying fuck you what kind of folks treat each other so badly and completely lack the human values to pull through for each other? You have just the one life and you want to spend it being such sad versions of yourselves?
I hope when the time comes, I end up with someone who does right by me and who I can do right by too. I want to take care of the man in my life, I want to bring peace and happiness in his world and in return I want to feel like I am valued by him, I am important to him and all that I do for him, for us... Is meaningful to him and he is more than happy to state that to me and about me. I don't ever want to be in a situation where I feel unimportant or overlooked by the person I love, so I hope when I do love someone... I choose the right man and he wins my heart by being genuinely nice to me. ♥️
I think I trust my intuition though. I seek above all else the knowledge that I feel emotionally secure and that's a feeling that only comes when a person actively makes you feel that way. Guys I've loved all had that in common and I'm certain that the guy I finally love above all else and all others will definitely be a man that makes me feel grounded and cared for.
Fuck finally he won omggggggg.
I swear if he had tried another fancy shot I'd have lost my fucking mind lmao. Aaaaa. Couldn't stomach that wifebeater winning fuck.
Aaaaaaaa
GG, vamos carlitossssss!
Istg I'd have wept real tears if that fucker Zverev had won fuck.
Hmmm.
I felt a bit of fear. I did. After a long time. I know it's silly to, but still for a moment I did.
I want to be treated well, with softness and kindness and respect. Softness is paramount. So is respect. Even if I'm wrong about everything else, if he cared about me, he wouldn't have had a problem saying hi or have taken so long to do it. It should have been the first thing he thinks of doing, not the last.
That's just all there is to it, really. And this realisation makes me very, very sad lol. And I feel so alienated too. Like giving me importance is the same as pulling teeth for him lol. He doesn't value me at all. And wants to show me that for some reason. Okay then, got it. All of this is just wrong behaviour. And definitely not good towards me. I don't know if all those people who say he doesn't care about people are right or not but in the end I can't unsee the fact that he is being deliberately mean to me. And I didn't even do anything to him so idk is it for fun? 🤷♀️ God knows.
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Heh. All of this is just saaaaad.
Anyway blah. How long will I also give a shit, beyond a point all this behaviour just gets tiresome.
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And I have to remember this. Being a woman, it's very important to be only around men who respect you. Not ones who want to strip you of your dignity or your pride or make you feel small and unimportant etc. And he is 41 now. That's a full grown man, and if he wants to make someone feels like they are nothing etc. etc. then it's just quite toxic tbh.
As guys grow up, mature... They understand how to be nice, how to be there for you and at the end of the day you should feel safe. Not have someone just jump to treating you like you don't exist two years after knowing you. Destroying your sense of security on a whim, and not just that but to take offence at something random and then to go ballistic like this is very flippant. To do that to someone who has actively shown you value and care is just quite unreal.
Like even thought of saying congrats yesterday then I realised hey that just gives him more opportunity to ignore me or keep me waiting or treat me badly and I realised right at that moment that I simply don't trust him anymore. Or rather, I trust that far from having my back and coming through for me, he would just use any opportunity to try and hurt me if he feels like it. I don't think he has any loyalty towards me.
Hmmm. All the while I'm having this conversation with myself to order my thoughts, the fact is that after two years of being there for someone, that person didn't bother to once reach out on their own.
So yeah, okay. I guess it's time to just accept he doesn't care about me at all.
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Watching Alcaraz Sinner they are both so good. Hehe. Like them both but Sinner is a guy I'm starting to root for properly. I think I have a preference for calm, grounded people more and more. Something about the grinders is lovely.
And Sinner playing more drop shots than Alcaraz lmao. Too good. And those forehands holy fuck that speed and power 🥵🥵
Aaaaaa I'm sure this would be one for the ages. 5 setter with baby Alcaraz showing some insane skills for sure. SO HARD TO LIKE BOTH PLAYERS IT'S WEIRD TO NOT HAVE SOMEONE TO ROOT FOR.
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"Victory belongs to the most tenacious"
Yes, it does.
Finally starting to love the new era of tennis .
I think it's time to relax a little bit in life. Just seeing the cold rains and feeling the breeze these days makes me feel like life is good, and there's a lot it has to offer. Should let go of all the negativity and all of it and simply chill and feel good. I want to feel happy and carefree. Heh. Random burdens I've been carrying and for what? It's just ghosts of a past left behind. Should they resurface, I'm more that capable of handling it, no need to feel like some cornered person lol. Hehe. Yeah. :)
Gotta spend some time researching for the book too. Oh man... It would be nice to have an actual tome on my hands I think I'll love it. It can be my baby. Aaaand I wanna finish carrotland too lol. It's definitely something I love... I want these kinda folks in life haha. Soooo adorable and wholesome.
Used to draw lil hearts on the sand just to watch the waves wash them away. One big heart and few tiny ones next to it.
Something I never shared with anyone cuz I thought it would be cringe to. Hehe. Oh wait, I did tell one person lol. But yeah.
I love beaches. As much as mountains almost.
Love,
Me.
Such a beautiful way to film a vlog. Pewds
I love the serenity, peace and the love in it. It's actually like a time capsule. I like pewds, he seems like how men should be. Humble, sweet and loving. It's just nice to know guys like this exist tbh.
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Happy families are made of strong, reliable and loving people. People who respect each other and are able to come together as a unit that makes each other stronger and better. Men who don't respect women will never be able to create this, you will only be afraid of them and strive to shield any progeny you have from them and their temper. Shit. I can't even imagine how horrible it'll be to be with someone invalidating or uncaring while you are pregnant or something. So scary. Damn. Men can be very scary at times to be honest.
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As it rains outside, watching this just feels like a slice of heaven to me. And in a weird way also serves as a reminder for what should be my north star. ⭐
