Naro Oct 19, 2025

I can't wrap my head around it still, I literally just saw him play last TT. Fuck.

RIP RebeccaHarris.

You were truly one of the gems of the chess world. I admired everything you stood for. I can't believe I'm never going to see you play again. :(

Starry, Warry, Rainy Nights

Rains and Star Wars. What a combo ♥️

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It's been so dreary and rainy the last few weeks. Every time I feel like stepping out it just pours for a good 15 mins lol. But lately I've kinda taken to rains. Not as bad as they seemed earlier. There was a time when this city was perenially cloudy, god that was depressing asf. Always needed sunshine and blue skies. But now cloudy weather doesn't seem all that bad either. 

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Talking to dad and that man has finally learnt to relax hehe... It feels like a good change. And he puts little hearts on my dinner pics haha...I really like that. 

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I hope everyone just remains happy hehe. 

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Wow I have 2199 posts damn. I never realised how much I wrote in the last few years... For a decade or more I rarely ever had anything to say. Haha, or rather I felt it was too fake to write stuff for no reason. And now, I guess there's nothing more delightful than rambling for no reason. 

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M turned that old Barky story into a picture book. It's scary how good ai generated pics can be. 

I love the vibe. And a part of me feels bad for the artist who originally created this stuff. Just feels so bad to know their work can simply be used this way. Hmmm. Well. I'm conflicted. 

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Oh well. I genuinely did love writing this one. It felt sweet and complete. And the vibe ai gets out of it is what I wanted as well so that's great.  I wish there was a way to get the position on the board correct. Very anti npd also haha. How did I see such positivity and hope and joy in such a dark soul? Maybe that's what I wanted them to be. Hope... The quintessential human delusion. Oh well. Maybe that's why we have stories. We can make them up as we go. And I guess I should take it as a reflection of who I am tbh. I am the author of it anyway lol. Feels strange to use the word author. But it is my creation and there will loads more. 

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Here's to more genuine writing, and to filling the blank spaces with colour. 

 

Pussy moves

Beat someone that's 2400 bullet and 2200, 2100 blitz and rapid at classical hell yea. That was fun. Also he played like ass but who cares. Oh that feels so good man. Ugh. I wanna learn to make fewer blunders I'm sure I can get to 2100 ish easy that way!! 

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Ok this means I gotta learn to play safe like a pussy lmao. Fuck I'm gonna hate this yukkk

What's a devastatingly gorgeous game ai ai aiiiiii

Omgggggg aaaaa

https://lichess.org/jbG6W3lS/white

Duuuude just ooof

In 45 seconds that too jesus 

Diatribes

They don't make songs like this anymore. They just don't. I feel like a lost soul sometimes. Maybe cuz I feel misunderstood. Maybe cuz it's kinda dramatic and self affirming. Maybe cuz I barely know any fucking person who even gets any of this anymore. How deliciously vacant. Heh. 

I don't know. 

I know that this song complements a lot of stuff one can feel. 

Fandango. :)

A whiter shade of pale

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Speaking of. Years ago I'd loved californication purely for the writing. Moody was a cunt, but he said the prettiest things. I felt sorry for him, I never related to him, but I kinda got him. A man deluded. I understand men like him. Can't love them, but I get them somewhat. Don't respect them though. 

"She said one thing and I said another and the next thing I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation."

This held me then, it holds me now. A good conversation is the key to my heart. I know it because I end up knowing you. It's amazing when knowing you is set to some really nice song that then serves to tell me we know each other. Conversations is what I fall for, always. 

60's rock, amirite? :)

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A lot of people marry out of loneliness. Some marry for security and I've never understood those souls, I see them as afraid at times. I don't judge, I just know I can't do that. And I wish I could, sometimes. Will life break me down to a point that I might? Idk. Currently, here I am, someone who simply can't live a lie. I have no clue what that means for me. But I can't live with someone who wouldn't get me. Heh. The simplest thing you want, and it's the toughest thing to find. Beautiful. 

Oops. 

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I could have beat the 2100... Fuck..just didn't see the stupid obvious tactic. Hmmm. I'm not particularly finding it difficult either. Actually quite ok with the level I'm encountering nowhere have I felt outplayed atmost just knew I was making an error. Interesting. Hmmm. Its more enjoyable when someone finds good defence too tbh. Well, this was good. I'm happy with today. Good sunday.

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Interesting. 1997. It wasn't significantly tough, just a matter of paying attention. When I play mindlessly I slip but otherwise it's actually not all that hard rn. I suppose 2100 would not be too bad a target. Nice. Just gotta be in the mood though, otherwise it's annoying to bring it back up. 

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Nepo played this damn. I remember the same motif this guy had also used. Interesting. I wonder who played this first. 

Dammit nepo is fantastico at tactics..ugh. hate him but wowza

Fisher and Poser

 BBC for the win.

 Fisher Documentary

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Oh lord 3 mins in and it struck me. Neimann tries to talk like him. Holy moly it's exactly the same. This is just nuts. Even living in hotels thing omgggg. Duuude. Ok legit crazy to imitate someone like this. 

Tf. 😭🙀🥲

Qgd

Ugh this man is like poetry in motion ooof I just love this. Istg his thirst for just knowledge is so damn neat. 😭 

I miss the games he commentated on first time loved chess commentary too. Maaaan. I should ask when the next round of coverage will happen, would love to sit through a nice grind session haha. Ugh. Who plays qgd like this maaaaaan aaaaaaaa. 

LOVE! 💕 

2001

 Woohooo I'm 2001 blitzzzz. 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

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Fuck. I was 700 when I started playing, and even now I know I suck at chess haha. Fuck. Beautiful. ♥️

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Ok now rapid again from tomo.  

Omg. I really wanted that damn 2k so much.  Hehe. + rapid 2k soon. Ugh I'm so excited but I also want to sit on this number for just atleast half a day before tanking it lol. Omg feels so nice 🙂

Edit: 2002. 2007. 

Omg. 🙀

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I wish I knew someone who loved chess so I could share this milestone UGHHHHG. 

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Ugh. I beat a 2100 also now. 🙀♥️ Wing gambit bestest. Noticing how people who don't play against it go e6. Interesting. They want to save le pawn. Pussies. 

Sometimes I see these puzzles and I don't get why this move is said to be so good. Idk. I mean yeah it's deffo unlikely and in a live game it would be difficult but the thing is if you are asking the right questions along the way, which most good players are I presume, then it might not be so hard. Idk. Have seen so many others where the. Continuations are so complex whereas this one only the first move is difficult to spot but the rest just flows so. Hmmm. But would I spot it in a live game? 💭 

Best

 Maaaan. This is so cute. 

So many lil lil nuggets on lichess ugh. Adorbs. A page for all best live games. And it's just simply games/best. How adorable. Thibs really thinks of everything in the simplest and most elegant manner. Hehe. And it looks super cute to see all the pieces move in real time like tiny ants busy with their little enterprises. Love it. This fellow is also in the mix but I won't send it to him. Not seeing that stupid lol there again

Spassky - 27th Feb 2025

Damn. RIP. 

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Sometimes I forget how young chess is, and how old. 

Wing gambit

Mariotti Kuzmin wing gambit. Hmmm. I still do not see what's so great about it. What am I missing? It feels sharp but for no real reason I can discern about it's advantages. Seen Sadler play it and it looked great then but maaaan I get wrecked when I do haha. Even if I don't it's just not really advantageous other than the opponent needing to calc but that's just meh feels like undue advantage tbh. 

I wish there were some games I knew that I could see with it. Hmmm. Will search. 

2040 rapiddd

 Woohooo!!

Lmfao so cool to play on alt and just hit the goal cuz inactivity. Just beat two people ezpz. ♥️

Clean victory against the 1998 too. Haha. That was so nice... I'm liking wing gambit but hard to say rn why it's good and what's the advantage post development. Wanna figure it out for myself. Woohoooo. I got my 2k rapid ahahha. Fun STUFFFFF.

Haha let's see at what level this rating stabilizes. Or am I afraid to find out? 🤭

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Getting random neimann recos. It's interesting to me how he is shaping up. Idk if it's a complete con or there's something more to him but idk. It's a redemption arc of sorts I guess. It's nice man. I don't know him personally so who tf knows if he is a nutter or was just a silly teen but the thing I can empathise with and what I actually do admire is his resilience. To face this level of scrutiny but also have the belief and work ethic to prove people wrong is quite something. Hopefully he isn't a cheat that's all. Hmmm. I guess it's what J. Krishnamurthy used to paraphrase which has always been a worthwhile quote to me. Take the lessons you feel are beneficial and discard the rest. Sure, he may not objectively be a good person but I have no way of knowing it. What I can see and respect is the spirit even though I do not find him likeable at all lol. Oh well. Tis what tis. Maybe why I like it is also cuz internally it reflects to me my own mindset in some small way. I do not like to quit and even when things get bad, I do try to find a way to get up and get moving. I am proud of that quality in myself because this is what I rely on wholeheartedly. Hehe. I guess I've always known and accepted at the back of my mind that I just have to do it myself. And I will. 😊

Woohoo wins

I have zero idea what an international correspondence chess master is, but... I beat him in a correspondence game wooohooo 🎉🥳🎈 

Keeping his cert for posterity haha

Actually so fun to play against someone that is a good player tbh. Makes me also want to think. I get all loosey goosey against opponents that are the same as me. Tf is a 2400 correspondence rating even lol. Need to find outttt

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One of the minute downsides of chess - reading a discussion on the opening of a short story and the word opening makes me think e4 🙄💀

First draw - Titled

Woohooo I drew a CM in a correspondence game omggg. Yaaay. That was fun. And all the mistakes were actually moves I didn't play despite considering them too omg. That feels better. I really should trust my calc more from now ahha.

Keeping for posterity. Not bad. He is 28 hundo bullet and 2500 blitz. A draw is decent I guess. Ngl wish it was a win though. Heh. First fucking time I've taken a draw but yeah with so much goddamn reluctance. Feels like biting on stone to take one idk why god I hate them. Still, baby steps. Dammit now I'm not even proud anymore just a bit annoyed wtf 

Wing Gambit

Sadler back on the 3+0 wagon woohoooo omgggg

https://lichess.org/h8xZCb9T/white

Pummelling 2900s in 13 moves zomg. I am sooo happy to see these games aaaaa. 💖🤭 Bulldozer through everyone so good ya. I wish I could play half as well dayum. Heart of a gambiteer truly.

And this wing gambit is so fun damn. Love it. Saving to see latah

Morra

Ooof. This against the morra

https://lichess.org/QxWSQ42x/black

What an attacker this man is fuuuuck. 

Bd4 by opponent such a weird move and he didn't spot the one crucial move back with that bishop to try and salvage. Still ughhhhhhfhhhfh. 

I could just touch myself oooof goddamn beautiful chess fuck. 😭😭😭😭😭

A nice game

https://www.chessgames.com/perl/chessgame?gid=1030906&comp=1

Bogoljubov Monticelli 1930

To peruse

Game 7

Exhilarating!!

Juuust. Loved it. Beautiful beaaautiful save by ding oh man. I love him haha. And Guks. Fuck. Hope he silences his critics. Iss all.