Good morning world! Looking at you bright and early is surreal.

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I have newfound respect for M for pushing himself as much as he does. Lol. Everything requires a warm up now. 😔

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It's already july 1 wuuut. Oh my god the time is flying by!

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I am beyond bored these days. Just mindless drudgery...need some change.

In bed so very early today. Hehe. Hope I sleep like a lazy baby. 🦥 

Yet another herculean task awaits tomo. Waking up at 6 am. Fucking kryptonite.

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What's with swiatek these days? Just loses so randomly. Wimby is sometimes very surprising. Watching sinners bleeding foot was weird enough, the number of UCs he did was just 😨🤯 I feel like in the absence of Alcu he also isn't doing well haha. Yin yang, balancing act. 

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Where did all joke books go? We used to have all these old joke collections filled with tiny chutkulas lol. Where did the entirety of that disappear off too? Would have been nice to read rn. 

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Playing in the sun was so draining. Idk how the elites do it. It's just so frustrating to not immediately reach back to the level I used to be at. I hate it. I hate the slowness, the reaction time lapses, everything. Just annoys me and I can't brute force my way to prev level lol. Well, nvm. If it takes an extra month or so big deal. I'll get it done the right way. Stupid high balls though god. So damn annoying. 

By August I expect to be able to be back to my intermediate level. I better be. 🙄😤

Nothing like getting drenched in the rain while out on a half walk half run lol. It's been a crazy week of not doing a thing so going out feels sooooo good. 

Half the enthusiasm of youth goes away in the drudgery of paying bills lol. Need to hold on to it for as long as possible. 

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Oh hey periods are back tooo! WOOHOO 😩 guys are so lucky yo. Seriously. Then again, I do not ever want night ejaculations 💀. We must pick our battles lol. Hehe eww man. Why are guys like this? 😂 All sickos yukky

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Ooo I can see wimby today. Will sinner perish with the heat? Who knows?

Allegory of Satan

Now this is a fantastic perspective. A collector of fools, indeed. 

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Ludwig Stasiak

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And I beat an FM too. Ok good note to end campaign. Hehe. Let's gooooo!

 My campaign rests at 2130 today. 🛌🏼

It was fought valiantly, with complete disregard for other parts of life. And now I must allow myself to let go of it and accept that today shall not yield a better result. 

Painful.

It's so damn hot wtf. Actually carrying around handkerchiefs these days. 

Such a quaint habit that's lost to time now. Heh. Like snotty nosed kids with a kerchief attached to their uniforms. To sniffle into and to wipe sweat from lol. Dual purpose. How does one person generate so much fluid. Some questions are best left unasked. 

Parts of the world don't even have school uniforms, that's nuts to me tbh. 

Omg June 28th already. We are halfway through the year wut even. 

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Atleast I can go for a nice jog today. Whew. Evening time. Can't imagine sitting inside forever. 

July 23, 2020. That's when I started playing chess. Damn dude. Ever so long!! I never thought I'd stick to it back then and now I don't think I'll ever quit hehe. How sweet.

You can never know what becomes a big part of your life and when. I like that thought.

Hehe. 

I don't think I started playing seriously till 2023 though. I remember that lecture on KiD by M which first got my attention. Till then I was just bumming about. And then that dude from his stream... Imbo or something... Told me not to see his lectures cuz they are not beginner friendly and not worth following. That irritated me ngl. Dammit. So basically me wanting to actually play is a byproduct of knowing this fellow man. Shit. What a bun. Haha. Well, the less he knows. To be fair, I didn't even know him till someone spammed me his yt and told me good chess. All I saw was an annoyingly noisy person, thought my friend was crazy for liking him. 😂 Oh man. Well, he is crazy so I wasn't wrong 😤💪🏼. I just don't hate him as much as I should lol. Well, maybe someday, one lives in hope. 😅♥️

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I want to be 2400 tbh. I won't feel happy then also but still. 

My friend sent me a reel of some bollywood actor on how he thinks life has no meaning and then went " see see! I also feel this. ". I was stumped. 

Like. 💀😂 The contrast of something as heavy as meaning of life, the most fundamental of questions and a total ditzy dude like saifu saying he gets it and it's meaningless. Oof. 

Blessed be people. Truly. Life is a remarkable experience 

I am fully bored with no going out. Last day of being in the house though. Finally sheesh. Being responsible about not spreading germs lol. Weekend tennis mornings. 💪🏼 Will hobble about and come back if I must.

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Sheep detectives is so cutesy. I'm not able to digest something this cutesy. Wolverine rearing sheep 🐑. Cousin Greg being cousin Greg. And winter lambs. How very adorable. We need crossovers in these kinda films ngl. 

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I want fresh air. 

Can't quite get myself to watch the WC this time. Hehe. My gaming threshold is complete with chess and tennis lol. 

These days life feels a bit like it's in a rut. Every few months I feel that, and I know why but yeah. Bit annoying. Probably also exacerbated by the fact that I'm feeling stir crazy not having gone out this week. Need to go out for a while. Fresh air yumz. 

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Too bored to think more now. 

Fin

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My worldwide rank in rapid is just 17000 wut. Wtf. That can't be right. Weird asf. Meh. I want more. 😤

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And now it's 16000. 💀 Ugh. I want to get 400 points more in rapid, I really do. Lol 😂. I'm never happy with progress, just never. It doesn't even feel like progress just feels lame anyway. 

Cough still hanging around like an unwanted guest. Missed two days of tennis this week too. Need to really go back!! Feels bad that I paid so much for coaching and I'm already out 4 classes. Sucks. 

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Chess cheaters are so frustrating. It's not the point loss that's annoying it's the fact that you try to play and think you lost cuz you played badly. Just so fucking unreal. Whenever I see the website I see notifs saying points refund like ugh. Why are people like this? Fuckin losers 

Love

The kind of art I love, it always has a piece of nostalgia, chilling, beautiful landscapes and backdrops and just capture ordinary moments of life that actually make it memorable. Themes of friendship, of getting along, pets, sunshine. It's all so lovely. It's the kind of life we should all aim for imo.

Getting my mixer fixed is such a mundane task I had completely forgotten what going to a repair shop feels like. How fun man. Part of the fun in electrical engineering was actually circuit design and devices. It's nice when stuff works and gears go around smooth. Pottering about all this now seems like a good retirement plan tbh.

Was thinking of the movie Lagaan and almost instantly brother sent something about it. Wuuut. Some coincidences shock me brrrrrr. 

Should think of something more specific and special next time lol