Oh boy. Lately I feel like I've stopped looking forward to stuff. There's this resistance in my mind about a lot of things now which used to not be there. I've stopped getting mad also, it's like a fatigue has just set in. I wonder why that is. Guess I need to take everything step by step. Probably the same as needing more warm up time before workouts. 

Yeah. I want to be cheerful and look forward to stuff that's actually something I want and I guess I need to align life in a way where that possibility is maximised. 

Anyway, it's fine. I'll figure it out. I'll try not to tank a good friendship over this either. Hopefully that's the right call. Let's see, time will tell.