Meh. I'm just tired and I'm gonna go to bed. No point thinking about anything. But wow I'm so not able to shake off the feeling of being a complete idiot. Lol. I feel strange. And so disappointed. It's been forever and I just. Idk it's just weird that you never said anything even once. I'm just tired. And I don't think I'm so horrible that I don't deserve to have any honesty or openness. And there I go, thinking is it me that's the problem and words like horrible come to my mind lmao. I'm not. 

Lol, this realisation makes me sad. :(