It's weird. This strange anxiety I've felt the last few days. Was thinking of why it has been so, and then just chanced on one of nadals speeches. And it kinda just helped make me feel good again. 

I guess out of all athletes I've ever known, he is the one that personifies what I admire the most. The value of resistance, resilience, perseverance as well as giving it your best. These are the only things you can control. He is the one true stoic in that sense. It would not be easy to follow that advice but it is the most grounding one ever. 

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Nvm periods arrived. All mood change and glumness leads to that. Lol. Sheesh. But I still feel like crying lol. Dammit.