Okay just going to stop being indulgent on whining and keep going. It's not like I wasted the year, I was actively trying to change a lot of shit too and I shouldn't take away from myself for that. Let me be more consistent from today and build back whatever it is that is missing. Sitting and sulking won't help just time will keep moving on. And the thing with time is it doesn't come back. Don't want to be at this point again, so on days I feel gloomy I still gotta make it a point to do what is necessary. That is the only way. Mental toughness is needed. Noone is gonna come save you, gotta do it yourself. Let me just take it bit by bit and not get overwhelmed.