Sunlight 😍

Lol someone posted Bartholomew s take on reddit haha. It's fun to see everyone scramble one way or another to either agree or disagree with him. In the end, I guess people should just care about whether they liked the game or not for themselves. I don't think it's fair to say he is just and IM so he doesn't have understanding and back that by saying leko and giri analysed it real time and found it brilliant. People who actively analysed it real time did find it to be fun. May not be a game for the ages but how does that matter? Long as you enjoyed it, should be good enough. This whole overt reliance on passing verdicts is lame. Hehe. I prefer seeing grandpa Sadler post his mums bday desserts on twitter to this rampant barrage of criticism. So cutely he adds emojis whenever he says thanks etc to me hahah. Gentlemanly and wholesome asf. 

 

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Researching angles for story and can't help but marvel at how incurable this disorder is, and how nothing can save them. So broken, which would be pitiful and worthy of care were they simply not monsters that harm and cheat and deceive. 

Always interested me in an academic sense to observe how far they will go to keep up appearances and try to manipulate you into seeing a version of them they want you to see. I always notice the anomalies. 

But I guess without the mask they feel like they are insignificant so what can you do? 

Finally finished sword catcher. Hmmm. Really not so great tbh. Maybe I'd have liked it as a kid but not sure. Isn't even a kids book more YA. Idk blah. 

💀💀 Just why

Perspectives

 Always to the rescue 

Adding a random sweet quote for myself on my calendar and setting it for a year from now. Just a lil inspo from someone who types " Hi future me! Congrats on cracking 980 elo " in a yt recap hahahaha. What a cutie. 😂

Lol Bartholomew shitting on yesterday's game haha. People in chess are bruuuutal. Hahahah. Oh well, even I share in that kinda desire to be right and precise so I get why they feel the way they do but I doubt I'd want to publicly tweet stuff like this out. Must be sooo harsh on the players if they read all this. Or maybe they are harsher on themselves who knows. Well either way. Funny stuff 

Assad ousted, SK protesting with music and lights, United's shooter's crazy ass model like mug shots released to public. So much stuff just happening the world over it's interesting how much info we have and how much fuckery would have been going on earlier when we didn't. Oh the silos we live in. 

The scene in black doves where Knightley talks to her husband and he is devastated at the thought of her cheating. How he speaks and what he says is so utterly well crafted. No anger, just pain and insecurity and a desire to tell someone he loves that he loves them. Damn man. I never think about how a man might feel to get cheated on. Maybe it's my bias I view it only as a thing guys tend to do. But the idea of just throwing away your family, small kids who will never understand why you did what you did. I think I just simply think more of kids being forced to grow up because adults made shit choices. I don't like that. 

I understand the need someone might have to get out when they are forced into a marriage or something. But when you willingly choose someone to be with, life gets boring at times and then you try to fuck around. That's kinda shitty. Hope I never do that. Even if I'm tempted I hope I never destroy something I love. 

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My pet peeve with these spy thrillers is that they completely don't understand or use tech in it. Like walking around in broad daylight in London, leaving prints everywhere. All of Europe has so much public surveillance how do you even get around that. Too weird. 

Okay second round of puuuushing haha. Let's gooooo. 

Aaand productivity hehe. Feels nice. Ugh. Something about December I just love so much. Everything is so sunny and crisp just feels joyous. I want to start working on the story today so little timmmeeee

I feel like it's nice to create your own traditions. I find it really sweet to give importance to certain things. Just little things that matter. :) Hehe feeling all gooey about this. 

Working in silence at midnight. Something about this feels so right, and the hours just flow. Beautiful 😍

Existential something

Waking up early on a weekday so I can feel like I'm done with everything by 11 am. The feeling of restlessness is priceless.

Black Doves

Cozy in bed, watching a nice show and marvelling at BBC just always coming through with such good content. Fresh, unique and engaging. After so long I'm watching a series. Well, no reading for tonight I guess. Hehe. I'm happy rn. Have to also start ideating for the story for Maya. I think I can come up with something good. Tomo!! A shiny new day