Carlitos with an inner shirt is just too cute ya. Lol. I find Paul also to be a sweet guy. Like he seems like a dodo for sure. Very doofy types but also like a sweet jock. Haha. It's nice to see. He seems like a very happy go lucky person too. That's a nice trait. Stay happy, don't stress, work hard. Good way to live life.

Watching Midsommer and pughs bf forgets her bday after being with her for 3 years. Lol. How very sad. May this kinda love never find me. 

I guess it's better than people like M who pretended to forget mine 3 years in a row. May such people never find me either. What a shitty person he is. That was just pure meanness on his part. Lol. He even lied when I reminded him and then just said something shitty like how will I know, and didn't wish or ask how it was or anything. It's all intentional and by design too, that's the worst bit of it. I mean there were plenty of other lows but blah. Plumbing the depths of meanness isn't any use. 

Meh.  If all a person can give you are bad memories to anchor you by, then what use is it remembering them anyway. Life is tooooo short to be wasted on people who insisted on making you unhappy. And didn't care that they caused you to feel bad. All I wanted was a bit of niceness and consideration. I guess I'm just some girl he used to feel validated like the Asians he wanted his friend to hit on to get experience. Well, thanks for the racism I guess. I knew not what it felt like before I knew him. Good old days lol. Maaan. Even putting up that lame status as a way to pretend like no no I'm not racist. Just so childish and weird tbh. 

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Midsommer is interesting in such a strange way. This whole clan thing just makes me super uncomfortable. I've always hated the idea of people all dressing the same and just living together this way, something about that is super unsettling. I suppose the movie is doing a good job of capturing it. And Florence man. What a fine actress. Just so sublime. 

This movie is freaaaakyyy!! So very creepy. Daytime horrors are just too much.

Oh for fucks sake wuuut. FUCK. WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING IN IT OMGGG.

Oh my godddddd what the hell is this film fuck.... Brrrruuuh

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Okay I cannot watch this. 

Shit I'd rather just see Alcaraz Paul instead when does it start? Zomg.

Lmao they held the ceremony at the palace haha. Only the of crowd would know how low key funny it is. This city was so small and fun back then. Way too crowded now. I liked the chill pace and the cool climates and the bobs and the machas. I feel like that flavour is kinda lost now. Oh well. Tis what tis. I wonder how the tournament is going. There's just so many happening all the time it's hard to tell if it's of any importance or not at times. Esp with the same names. Becomes a bit tough to distinguish. If I knew earlier I could have maybe checked it out. Oh it's at Lalit Ashok too. Man, all old bangalore og venues. Shit they had that nightclub we once went to lmao. What was it called again? Sutra. Oh maaan. What a throwback. That dj was studied in our uni always walking around with attitude hahaha. Good times. 

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What a lazy ass day today. Just whiling away time. 

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I can only beat 1700s now. I have fallen. 😕

5.30 am on a Sunday and I am upppp! Wow. It's like a whole new world out here. I can hear birds. BIRDS 🐦 

Jeez.

And whose surname is merida? That name is stuck in my mind since yesterday like who is it? Ugh. Something to do with chess. 

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Fritz lost? Wut? Keys too. Her I expected tbh. But damn Fritzy. Lol imagine tsitsi actually makes a deep run for once. Wouldn't that be something. 

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Magnus is in town lol. Didn't even know. Feels so weird to know that the goat of chess is chilling here. Oh all of them are here. Sindarov etc. nice nice. Haven't followed any event in ages maybe see some today. 

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Meh. Fucking lost so much idc about stupid chess hope everyone else also loses fuck this game. Stupid opponent leaving game is the only elo I got fuck this

Watched Zakhm for the first time. Man, I'm mind blown by how delicately this movie was made. Whatever happened to the quality of films since. And back in 1998 no less. 

It's wonderful how far the country has come since then though. I'm glad tbh. I've always hated division amongst people and I hope it minimises to a point of nothing over time. One of my deeper wishes. In my heart I've always strived to respect people, especially ones that society tries to shun because fuck that. It's just as heartbreaking today as it was when I was a kid. Watching this film reminded me of the crazy amount of weird social bullshit that used to exist. 

Also, whatever the fuck happened to the bhatts that they went from making this to shit like murder lol. Sheesh. Talk about falling into an abyss lol. 

Well, I'm glad the movie was worth the time. Very nice 🙂 

Buying a lungi for dad and it now comes with pockets and a waistband lmao. Might as well call it a skirt but nooooooo. Men and their men ness. Haha. 

Maaaan. This is just too cute ngl. I am super duper fond of my father, aren't i? Just. As much as I have hated him for being a stubborn ass, he is just so sweet and gentle when he is in his element that I can't but love him lots. 

Is it a coincidence that I fall in love with only stubborn mules? Like I've never truly loved a guy until I sense that one mulish quality in him. 

Oh lord. Just never let me unpack this ever. We shall put it inside a box and pretend it doesn't exist. 😂💪🏼

ONWARDS and UPWARDS ☝🏼

Geoguessr flip offs lol

Die Möckernstraße ist ein Verkehrsweg im Berliner Bezirk Friedrichshain-Kreuzberg, Ortsteil Kreuzberg. Sie verläuft in nord-südlicher Richtung von der Stresemann- bis zur Kreuzbergstraße und führt dabei mit der Möckernbrücke über den Landwehrkanal.

Wie süß, wunderbar!

Sehr gut, sehr gut.

Heh. I can't help but laugh at how flippy offy geoguessr is today 😂. 

What was that quote in the Godfather? "Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in" 

Haha, nein. Not today! 

Whew! Nothing like a good long session in the sun to feel good. I love the heat so much! Gotta learn to be faster now. I think these next three months are where I can manage to get to a somewhat ok level. Maaan. I can't wait!! Tired in a good way too. That feels nice. 

All day grumps lol. For no reason except didn't sleep well. And ate bad food that I didn't like. Almost like a cranky baby 🐥🍼

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Looool carlitos with an extra shirt. Hiding them nips finally 😂 okay now that's funny asf

 Z playing again. Ai yai yai. 

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He is the villain to root against huh? Surprisingly so. Can Halys vanquish him? Pls pls pls 🥺 

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I am incredibly sleepy 🥱. It's already 7.30 am and I still wanna snooze. Nay, sleep! 

So grumps today 

 Aaaaa a I'm just losing losing losing. I fucking hate this stupid game. Fuck you. 

I prefer heat over cold for playing conditions. Interesting. There's something so lovely about the sun beating down on my face 😈. Before I detour into song, I must say that feeling was pure bliss for me. 

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Hope the rest of my day goes well. I get so tired these days. I like that feeling more or less. It takes away any time you might spend on bs lol

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S used to have this massive hard on for Gibran. Came across his poetry today and I remember liking this back then too. Still holds up. Something about expressing ideas that examine the essence of a thing really sits right with me.

 How very quaint. 

Sons and daughters of life's longing for itself. Bang on! 🏹 

Since carlitos is making this popular why not hehe. 

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Naive old me used to own a domain called I don't like bananas back when blogging was a new found thing. And as I chomp on my 🍌 rn I feel life has come a full circle. 😕 I am a convert. This fruit gets me through the day when my energy is low and my body is like feeed meeeeee. 

Ugh. Yet another part of growing older that sucks. 

I love bananas. Hehe. Chi. Sounds so bad. Tastes so yum now though. 🤭

Why am I so immature?

Oh carlitos! 😦 DON'T GIMME JUMPSCARE EARLY MORNING

I am convinced at my level noone knows how to play chess. It's just such piss poor quality games. Like toddlers colouring in books. It's so bad yo. Just. Eeyuck. Heartfelt 🤢

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I am again in bed by 8 pm lol. Nuts. Lmc if I can play more. I'm just so tired though. Such a long day!

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https://36questionsinlove.com/

I remember doing the proust questionnaire once with S and he and I had logged out answers in that website that used to store it. Man. It's been years and idk where it is. I would love to revisit what I used to think back in 2012 lol. I wish it still existed or I had saved a copy. 

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I'd love to do this with someone someday though. That would be so nice. It's a great way to get to know someone tbh.

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I'm tired in that weird way where falling asleep seems really hard and really necessary. How to?

Lool. Came back and saw and Z still battling. Damn Sonego pls. 

Ugh. Ggs man. Fought so hard. V cool! 

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Always great to see someone challenge status quo! 

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Carlitos pls 🥺 🙏🏼 MAINTAIN STATUS QUO

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Even meddy winning would be fine tbh. Just 🤌🏼 

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I love this fabric. I'll get this for her maybe. Or idk. I want to send over something traditional handicraft. I love bandhani, the tie dye is just so pretty on it. Or maybe ikat or hakoba. Hmmm. Lmc. I'd love to get this right hehe!  

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Fabrics are so beautiful man... I just love them. So many artforms in India. So many weaves. Feels beautiful. 

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Ugh. DILEMMA!

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Ugh let's see zverev play eeyuck. Hope he loses 😕

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Yoooooo! Sonego doing what I want let's goooooo!!