Space Oddity

Watching some 2400s play rapid and I'm always shocked at how they blunder simple tactical things like if you take a piece that's guarding another. I feel like most games are just a matter of one blunder, which is egregious. Rarely do I see anything that's free of them and positional I guess. It's interesting though. And frustrating to be honest. To watch someone just make the mistake you preempt it's haha idk. But maybe that's chess. If you love precision anyone being imprecise can be annoying. I bet games like the ones I would play would also irritate the crap out of higher rated players. Hahah. Oh well fuck em. 🖕🖕I get why M also must be annoyed by A when he is passive cuz he is like aahhh just get in the field don't be lazy calculateeee. Hahaha. If he got annoyed by me I actually wouldn't care I'd probably get all dug in and want to prove him wrong or some shit. Bite off way more than I can chew but when it comes down to it idc I'll still fight and there are some things that are best left untested haha. It also takes trust I suppose. To trust that even if they being mean on the surface they actually want the best for you so you allow for them to shape you in some way. If I give him my trust it'll be forever so I won't for now. That much power should only be with someone who wants the best for you. I'm not yet convinced of that so nyat. I shall not bestow mine on him. 🎃

Actually really enjoyed analysing one game too. Wanted to see if I can spot what's a critical error and I could damn. It felt so damn good. Checked with engine and it jumped from -0.5 to +4 ish right there. I think it's the first time I've actually tried to do it this way and just enjoyed it so much. Naro was right, there are just worlds within one position and it's so easy to get lost in it. It's scary how enticing it can be too, you can spend hours in it. "Chess is beautiful enough to waste your life for." ~ Hans Ree. I kinda agree. Not all of it, but I can see how it can be alluring. 

Saw some yt clips and as usual the drama came in recos. Was kinda surprising to hear Naroditsky say he didn't take on krammers because Kramms is high rated. Didn't expect that. I thought it was simply a matter of principle like randomly this dude annoying me why should I reward him with a match. Lol. He is also following his own dostoevsky arc a la Ivan Karamazov. People are so weird they fascinate the fuck out of me at times. Even when I view him I'm thinking to myself hey what would be the best way to deal with this etc. Deffo not wha he is doing, just coming undone. I can't seem to help but speculate on what's the right thing to do in all of this. Still, never occurred to me that he simply didn't want a match cuz he knows krammers is v strong. And yet he is spending time in yt comments now. It's pretty sad. But yeah that thing M said about retirement being tough lolol. Sooooo cute man. Aaaaa. Just melted at the thought of some sad dude not feeling good about people not respecting him. Then realised wow am I easy to sympathy scam or what. Feeling bad despite the unhingery he displayed while Ivan dearest is not able to eat or sleep. Ahhahahah. Why are they all so crazy? Istg in normal life noone will have the patience or the mood to deal with these nutters and yet collectively the chess world just makes room for insane oddities. 

Am I odd too? Hahaha. Not yet anyway. I can straddle the normie world well but maybe inside me is also an impulsive non conformist that wants to peek out from time to time. Such a pretty way to describe it, but why the fuck not. 🤭

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Ahahahhahaha. Ommggg. Such a grouchy twatty man but fuck, he does have a way with words. Hahahhaha. Stupid ass chess world just people being petty and cunty for no reason and yet it's just so idk. I DONT KNOWWWW. 🤣♥️